fresh air

a breath of fresh air. that's what this was. i sat down for 4 straight hours with a long lost friend who just popped right back into my life in a huge way.... and we talked dance. the whole time! we talked about what we've done, what we're doing, where we're going. we exchanged ideas and opinions. we played movement games. we talked improv. we talked strategies. we watched tapes of her past performances - and were brought to tears by them. we just let ourselves run around for a while in that part of us we love so much.

she helped me feel like i'm doing something good. like i'm actually making an impact on the small town, recital oriented, closed minded type studio that i'm working at. and i'm starting to believe her (though it's hard), because we have the same roots. we started there together and went off and i came back. she did not. and her outside perspective is invaluable.

"i'm so excited you're actually following through and doing something. that's exactly what this little town, connecticut needs."

i agree. i'm not going to let myself just sit complacently dreaming dreams that will never come true. i will make something happen. i will push myself to continue pushing and learning about choreography. about performance. about what works and what doesn't. about how to stretch boundaries and make connections. i will make a space for other people to explore themselves and their worlds through movement and music and words and each other.

and WE will have the time of our lives doing it.

all i can say is i am forever thankful for the people in my life who share these aspirations and who will just sit down with me for a few hours and mull about in them.

sigh......... a breath of stunning fresh air, indeed.