you step on the hem of my pants
worn with memories before you
stained with a past that haunts
and defines me

your smell penetrates my fiber
as you hold me through the night
and then go home to her

your heart beats me senseless
as you dance me through the night
and let me drive home in the rain

"i'd probably be happier with you"
you say

your foot clamps down on a thread of hope
and my layer of defense

unravels at your will

here is my problem. i haven't written in so long i'm having a hard time separating things.... it's all mush. so until i can remove thought from muck, i'll leave you all with a quote from Barbara Kingslover's Animal Dreams:

"What keeps you going isn't some fine destination but just the road you're on, and the fact that you know how to drive. You keep your eyes open, you see this damned-to-hell world you got born into, and you ask yourself, 'What life can I live that will let me breathe in and out and love somebody or something and not run off screaming into the woods?'"

holy molies.

the last blog was september 29th............ oops.

i'll cry that same old song and blame it on student teaching - the black hole sucked me in for 60 some-odd days. but i'm juuuuust about finished with that, and will hopefully get back into some creative modes.

i've got Oklahoma! rehearsals starting up soon - i think auditions are going to be in the next couple weeks.

i want to get ian to drive with me to chi-town with the fam and then bug out early to come see yall in the MD - but this all depends on his internship stuff for school.

so, as always, it seems life is getting in the way. sigh.

WE CAN DOOO THIS.